this new reality

I need your help. I’m unsure of what I need from you but I know I need someone to be here with me. Someone I can trust, someone who I can talk to. I don’t want to feel afraid. Can someone understand what I’m going through. I want to runaway but at the same time I’m too afraid to go. But its also hell to stay.


I tried creating my own world. In My world where I could try anything and I’d be the perfect one. I would always be the best, the prettiest, the skinniest, the most talented. I had dreams of accomplishing all these things. They kept me going. They gave me hope for a better future.

Do you understand that was my way out? Those dreams were my reality and every time you doubted or said no it would crumble my reality. I worked so hard to keep my walls up but ultimately I found out that my dreams were unachievable. What else is there for me now?

Tell me, what do I do now, that my world is gone…all hopes and dreams are gone. What do I have to hold on to? Those dreams made me. They were what made me different. They were my identity. Now they are all gone and now what is left? A person unable to make it in this world. A person who cannot cope with this new reality that she has found herself in.

What I need from you I think is for you to create a new reality for me. A new identiy that can define me. I have lost me with my dreams and would like to find myself again, you see.

Can you please help me.